Lately has been having very bad insomnia. I wonder if I am having nervous breakdown or just hormonal distress. If this is normal at all? Sigh. I wish I could just turn my brain off for a second and just forget everything. Be that cheerful girl that doesn't care about anything. Oh heart, why are you so burdened lately?
Perhaps too many things has happened, too fast, now that i manage to find time to slow down and be alone. I have too much free time to think about my life and decision i made. Geez, I shouldn't be too free.
It's almost 2am now, and I am playing that song by elva, rather emo huh? Oh life, have you ever wonder what you would do if you were to be given the second chance to turn back the time?
Are you happy with your life? Content? Will you take the same decision you made in the past? How many of you has regret over the past and overcome it? How?
So many questions yet none can be answered.
Gosh, apparently being an adult ain't easy huh? Things were much simpler back then when we are young and free. Doesn't care. Don't bother. Happy.
I am now too used to bottled up all my feelings and pent it to myself. Trying to smile and tell the whole world I am fine. After all, who else know the pain I went through besides myself?
Oh, I need distraction. A huge one.
Guess i need to make myself super tired in the day time so i wont have time to be insomnia and emo in the night time.